That unexpected two-week trip home put a wrench in many of our plans. (What’s that saying about God laughing our plans?) Stephen was pulled out of WLC, we were about the pull the trigger on a trip to Belgium, and there’s that whole marathon thing I’ve been training for.
I took my running stuff with me to Texas. It wasn’t so much because I had the intention of keeping up with my training (although I did take a picture of my training plan before we left) as it was a way to relieve stress. I knew it’d be a hard trip and I knew that I’d want to (or more likely – need to) run a little. And a little is about all I did. Two runs each week, 22 miles total. Not really what you’d expect 6 weeks out from a marathon. In fact, race day is now less than a month away.
So where does that leave me? Well, I’m jumping back into training today. I’m supposed to run 20 on Saturday, and as of right now, I’m planning to go for it. If I manage ok, then I figure I can toe the line on race day, although I’m not sure if my lofty PR goals are still realistic. And I’m still not sure that I will race.
Reasons TO run the Konigsforst Marathon
I’m mostly training for it, I think. The 20 miler will give me a better idea if it’s realistic, but I think I could probably do it.
I could always drop to the half if the full seems too lofty; I could definitely run 13.1.
I don’t want to not do it just because of all that happened. Running the marathon would be a way to honor Ben. He could never go 26.2, but I know that if he had been healthy, there would have been no question – he loved running.
I don’t know that there is a really a reason not to.
Reasons NOT to run the Konigsforst Marathon
I’m feeling under-trained (debatable) and my confidence is shaken. I’m fairly certain I can do the distance, but I don’t know if I could do it within the time limit.
If I decide that the full is too much, and I drop to the half, is the race worth all the hassle and money if I’m “only” doing the half? (I don’t think that 13.1 is by any means a small accomplishment, but I’ve already run my share, and this race is going to cost me a pretty penny. If I make the trip, I want it to be worth it.)
If Stephen is able to get into the next WLC class (which is what we are hoping), then he won’t be able to come with me. If he can’t come with, then I’ll be driving 5 hours clear across Germany by myself and running a marathon by myself and driving myself 5 hours home afterwards. I’d also have to board Geronimo, yet again.
My focus is gone. In previous weeks, I was working on becoming a running beast. I’m not sure that my fire and determination are still there. Do I really want to put in the effort necessary for this goal right now? I’m not sure.
Where does that leave me? I don’t know. I have thought about this (a lot!) and continue to flip-flop without coming any closer to an actual decision. I know this is one of those things that I have to figure out for myself, so I’m hoping myself gets it together soon.
What do you think? Is there an angle to this that I’m missing? A hidden pro? An unnoticed con? What would you do?