I started this blog over two years ago (geeze! Two years already!) with the goal of staying in touch with my husband while he was deployed. It seemed like a fun addition to e-mails, care packages, and the like; this would be a glimpse into my brain complete with run-on sentences, pictures, and the occasional quippy title. I didn’t really think anyone else would read it, and I had no idea how much it would come to mean to me. This blog has seen me through my running triumphs and failures, my deployment highs and lows, a happy (but complicated) reunion, two moves, the death of my brother-in-law, three jobs (four if you include my brief stint as a housewife), plenty of boring musings and more than a few emotional blow-ups/break-downs/brouhahas.
Now friends, it seems as though you are seeing me through a slump. Not in my personal life – for the first time in two years, all is calm. (Or as calm as can be. Let’s be real, with me it really only gets so calm.) I have found myself quietly and happily moving through the days. When I sit down at the computer to blog, nothing comes to mind. Most of the time I’d rather watch The West Wing on the couch with Stephen and Geronimo in my spare time than stare at blinking cursor on the computer screen.
If I’m completely honest, my motives for blogging are selfish. I like talking to you (yes, you invisible people on the other side of the screen). I like getting your feedback. I like sharing my pictures and tales of travel adventures. I like talking about running (the one thing that I never get tired of talking about). Most of all, when deployment number two rears it’s ugly head, I selfishly want your company and support.
But right now? Right now I selfishly want to ignore you. (I know, I’m a real treat.)
I’m not going to stop blogging. At this point, I don’t even know how to do that. But I’m not going to write if I have nothing to say. So my irregular posting as of late may become even more irregular. Maybe I’ll be hit with a bolt of inspiration and post five days in a row. (With this week marking the start of half training and the races that follow, I’m sure I’ll have a thing or two to say!) Who knows!
What I do know is that y’all have seen me through so much that you deserve at least an explanation. (I promised myself that I’d never just disappear from the blogosphere without a trace.) Here’s what you get: It’s not you, it’s me. Keep me in your reader and when I pop up, we can hang out. Don’t hold it against me if all you get is radio silence. And, as always, thank you for keeping me company these last crazy couple of years.